Busy, Busy Bee

Last night I had a meltdown. Tears and everything. I'm realizing I have no time to do anything that's truly important. I have so much to do I barely have any time do to homework. I am running around from place to place trying to get everything done and trying to please everybody. My life is so, so, so crazy. 

Sometimes, I think that maybe my job at Gideon is too much. Or maybe I should just let someone else do the project. Or maybe I can manage to read spark notes for english. Or maybe I can just skip Coffee Talk. But at the end of the day, all of those things are important to me. Seeing my baby Mukunth at Gideon and talking with girls about God's grace at Coffee Talk. Or going to dinner with J and taking the dogs on a walk. All of these things keep me busy and sometimes get me behind, but these things are important to me.

I'm realizing I need to let go a little bit. I can't be perfect all the time. I'm gonna mess up and my mind is going to slip (as it did several times this past week). With so much on my mind, it's hard not to mess up. But hey, in 10 years, am I really going to remember the grade I made on my pre-cal quiz? Or when I forgot my homework? I can't let these little things get to me, because my self worth is so much more than that. 

I need to be reminded to just breath. Senior year is definitely not what I accepted (I thought senior year was supposed to be easy?), but it's my last year here in Coppell, so I need to make the most of it. It's time to get happy. 

This is my baby, Mukunth. My future child better be exactly like him. 

Also, here's the BEST chocolate chip pumpkin muffins recipe. Like, holy cow, they're good. 

4 eggs
2 cups sugar
1 (16 ounce) can pumpkin
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 1/4 cups vegetable oil (yes, 1 1/4 cups)
3 cups flour
2 teaspoons baking soda
2 teaspoons baking powder
2 teaspoons cinnamon
1 teaspoon salt
12 ounces semi-sweet chocolate chips

1:
In large mixing bowl beat eggs, sugar, pumpkin, vanilla and oil until smooth.
2:
Mix dry ingredients together and mix into pumpkin mixture. Fold in chocolate chips.
3:
Fill greased or paper-lined muffin cups 3/4 full.
4:
Bake at 400 F for 16-20 minutes.

Also, I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to be there right now. 

Happy Sunday, everyone!